New year is coming...

New year is coming again. Calender and the atmostphere around told me so. But I didn't really feel like it is going to be new year. I heard that this year we are going to restorant to have out annual dinner. The first time we went out to eat.
I remember when I still a litter kid, even the dining table is huge and round. The adult are manage to full it with people. There is no empty seat, at that time.
I call my mom few day ago, ask her whats news and are she going to eat with us. The answer is no, I try to talk her through by telling this will be only once a year gathering dinner. Her answer is shocking, " what gather?" What is so good about eating together? Since the family is broken already, eating together will bring it any diffrent mei?
I started to notice the dining table started to appear some empty seat each year. Last 2 year grand pa and grand ma is gone too. This year the table will only have 3 person. They still call this gathering dinner. But I didn't feel how warm will this dinner be.
I miss the time when people are all busy to prepare for new year. When that time, I still can feel like the family is together. I miss the last old day.....

Grow up...

Tomorrow will be the last off day I have untill Chinese New Year. Wondering why am I doing here in this time, where I suppose to be home and have a nice dream after a tiring work day. Maybe I'm thinking I cannot waste this kind of free time so easy, this the only chance I can get online. Before I get started, I thought this job will be easy and have more free time compare to the shoe fair. Tired.. Been three day already, doing full day. And i know there will be more waiting for me, more and more fullday, untill after the chinese new year. Working is not same with study, you don't as free as how you used to be.
I donno what working means to other. But it meant to me that I have grow up, no longer the little kid who only know how to spend and play. Typing in english become a lazt task for me, I rather go to post in chinese.