I spent the entire day in cyber cafe..

I do this a lot after I become single again. I guess here is the only place I can spent the entire day without feeling useless and boring. But I'm not sure doing this view benefict me. I just know I have to be at someway beside my house. sometime I feel bored when I go online. Seems like there is nothing I can do for going online. I don't have alot of friend to chat with, I don't have a lot of mail to reply. Even when I play game, I might also cannot get someone to play with me. The only good thing is, time is passing. And the day have been wasted. Once again like i usde to do.

Lonely inside..

Feeling really lonely. Yesterda alot of people went to count down. But none of it ask me out. I wondering why, is that because I don't have alot of friend is just I'm not a popular person among myfriend. Take a short review to the lifestyle I"m having. I find that, most of the time I am hanging out with girl. This may not be the bad thing. But might be the bore thing. After hanging out with girl for such a long time, I find that I donno how to comunicate with guy anymore. donno what shall I talk to them. And I might bore them when I having a conversation with a guy.
Being a only child in the family have make me suffer for lonely in house for a very long period. And I don't want to remain the same boring lifestyle in the coming future. I think what I should do is trying to make more friend. So that I don't have to feel lonely when big event is on.

starting a NEW LIFE from today

I hope I will get rid of him and start a new life from today on. Cause I know that I canot kept thinking about him and do nothing beside feelind sad. If i have brave enogh to end the relationship with him, I guess I brave enogh to move on without him. Soak in sadness he leave to me will never bring me to any where.
And i finf that my teech is about to drop, the front teech, is scary. And my steve kor kor said, is because of gum infection, have to go wash teech only can cure wo. If not, all of my teech will drop. Sound really scary lei. I want to have all my teech lah!!!
Don't have mood to write liao.
Continue to write when i make sure that my teech will never leave me fist lah..
I will really thank god if my teech i safe...
Plz........

Afterall the thing i gone thgough, I'm single again...

I'm very supprise that this will happend. Even n my dream I'm also never thought that, I will be the one to end this relationship. I can still remember the time I promise him that, I will never leave him, but now, I have broke my promise. I really did. Can he blame me for what had happend to us today, My heart is empty after realize about this. I'm single again.
Actually, that wouldn't be alot of change to my life after breaking up with him, before we break up, I also seldom notice the apperamce of him in my life. When I"m sad, people around me to support me is all my friend. Where is he when I"m need him? Maybe is dating with eric, or having fun with another men. I think i can have a better life without his interuption.
Before I found him(Kent), I'm already give up to the said that, there is true love some where waiting for us to search. And his the one who make me belive this again, and I'm used to thought he will be the one who be with me forever. Being with him i can think about future. But thats nopt true, everything is just a big lie form him, he never as good as I thought, and never love me as much as I thought he did. But what can I do? Delete all the sweat and painfull memory he gave to me? Or I can take this expereince to remind myself, not to trust people so easily, and don't ever let anyone to hurt me again.
Maybe he is not a good lover, but he is really a good teacher, I learn alot from him, I learn how to notice when people telling lie, And I learn how to make people tell the true. I have this skill is because, he lie to me too much. Uncountable.
Wish that I will get more friend, Lover is no longer a need for me, but friend is.
Never trust about true love, Having fun in this not so long life is more important that searching someone that you never found........