I'm very supprise that this will happend. Even n my dream I'm also never thought that, I will be the one to end this relationship. I can still remember the time I promise him that, I will never leave him, but now, I have broke my promise. I really did. Can he blame me for what had happend to us today, My heart is empty after realize about this. I'm single again.
Actually, that wouldn't be alot of change to my life after breaking up with him, before we break up, I also seldom notice the apperamce of him in my life. When I"m sad, people around me to support me is all my friend. Where is he when I"m need him? Maybe is dating with eric, or having fun with another men. I think i can have a better life without his interuption.
Before I found him(Kent), I'm already give up to the said that, there is true love some where waiting for us to search. And his the one who make me belive this again, and I'm used to thought he will be the one who be with me forever. Being with him i can think about future. But thats nopt true, everything is just a big lie form him, he never as good as I thought, and never love me as much as I thought he did. But what can I do? Delete all the sweat and painfull memory he gave to me? Or I can take this expereince to remind myself, not to trust people so easily, and don't ever let anyone to hurt me again.
Maybe he is not a good lover, but he is really a good teacher, I learn alot from him, I learn how to notice when people telling lie, And I learn how to make people tell the true. I have this skill is because, he lie to me too much. Uncountable.
Wish that I will get more friend, Lover is no longer a need for me, but friend is.
Never trust about true love, Having fun in this not so long life is more important that searching someone that you never found........
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