Attach......

A word I shall be proud of once upon the time. A word I hate the most because of someone. A way to escape from the can't help lonelyness. Represent another relationship that I never thought myslef will jump into. It means alot to me, in the past. I guess it will still bring alot of meaning to me now. If i suceed to search for a new meaning for being attach. A meaning, Beside then come out of lonelyness, A meaning beside that having a chance to get hurt, A meaning, waiting for the phone to rang when you know that it will never rang, A meaning, cry by myself alone in the darkness eyes, while everyone is having a sweet dream. This is what attach mean to me, a meaning that i never want to study once again. ...........

Exam??

I'm having my Spm trial now. SAme like the other exam we are having for this entire year. I remain sleeping when everyone is doing thier paper(I mean for those paper I really donno how to finish it). I notice that something is diffrent about this exam. Because alot of people is copying answer and even passing the paper around. This is too much. I wonder that is this still call a exam? Sometime they even copy the entire answer paper to get in. For certain teacher who are easy to bully, soem of the brave student dare to walk around the class room to copy answer.
And the most annoying thing is that, when I trying to ask the person infront of me to comfirm about a question I'm not comfirm. She tell me that she don't know. When her friend ask her, she can give the answer directly. What is that??
why is this happend to me?? Are there really that much of people who are dislike me? Or is just people just feel like hate me when they saw me??
I wonder...

People are leaving..

I used to hear this when i was a child, they said that, people will lift us as we grow older. I don't understand that at that time. Now I do. People lift not because they reall want to. Sometime, theeere are force to lift. Just like we have lose several of friend when we gratuate. Although we promise will get back with each to each other, no matter how many year we gratuate. but this is just a empty promise. We can't do anything if someone broke the promise. Beside this,m alot of thing can make people lift us. Some missunderstanding or qualrel also can make this happend..
And the most unwanted one is when someone is die.
Last week my grandma is gone, wednesday. Feeling is complicated, donno shall I feel sad or glad. She have beed suffer for storke for 6 year and more. Die maybe a relief for her, And a relief to out family financial burden. But, she's neveer there anymore. After she die. We can never see her or chat to her. what she left is ashs. For us to rememberr her..
die is still a scary thing for me. I still cannot imagine that. Hopefully that my health will remain good. So that my friend and family don't have to face this problem..

Something happy....

Last saturday is quite a happy day to spend in a cc for the entire day. Because that is the one and only day I'm really busy chatting with friends in msn. I find that it is very exhausting to chat with friend non stop in msn. Even I have been wishing for that day happend for a very long time. And i couldn't believe that I have decide to end all the conversation after chatting for sometime, because of tired. And I also have start achieving some result in the warcralf, cos i have done a monster kill in dota. And I really happy about it. Cause for most of the time, I am the weaker player on that game. And whichever team I'm in, The team will lose. So, I think after all the praticing, I will no longer to be the factor of losing in the game. Atleast I hope so..
And in the monday, I have gone to meet someone. A kid call titus, A kid call titus that are two years older then me. Is quite a nice and Funny guy...